post-15

One week has passed since the previous post. I remember feeling very defeated and very tired, and thoughts of throwing in the towel kept whirling in my mind. I don't recall having felt this way in my last relationship, and I was really feeling very, very down.

Then on sunday night we sort of thrashed things out, and I poured out everything tt I had been holding in. I don't believe that we should tell the person we love how much we've sacrificed or compromised just to be with him/her, because to have to tell the person how much you've given up seems to be demanding smthg in return. But sometimes, if you don't verbalize all these, you end up feeling unappreciated and taken for granted.

There were things tt I didn't want to tell Chong about. But last week I couldn't hold them in any longer and so I spilt it all out. And no surprise, I was crying throughout. *sigh* I do hate to appear weak and vulnerable, but somehow I can't control the tears. But it was for the better, because now he said he understood better, and tt we should work things out from there.

The aftermath of a huge quarrel, especially if you've made up, is especially sweet. But tt doesn't mean quarrels shld happen very often okay. I think this was the worst quarrel we've had in the 9 mths of being together. But fortunately we've decided to work things out and move on from there, instead of giving up (:

Last night we went down to the Esplanade thinking tt there was a Mid-Autumn display there, only to be slightly disappoined that there wasn't. So we decided to take the riverboat taxi ride down the Singapore River, and the 30 minutes on board the boat was really very romantic and nice! Hee.

I really, really hope tt things will work out for us, because I love him so.