This week I have been feeling nothing but content and just feeling glad and happy. The boyfriend took heed of what I told him, and we've been spending quite some time together.

I know that this can't happen all the time, but I'm glad tt he did put in the effort to make plans to meet me (even when I was least expecting it); or simply to buy me dinner and sit on the sofa and watch tv with me (girly programs like ANTM & Ghost Whisperer, no less)

I realize tt I'm happiest when I'm with him. When I can feel his presence next to mine. Spending quiet and quality time together. It really makes me fantasize abt how it'd be like in future living with him. When he's around, I'm usually in a good mood, and almost nothing, almost nothing, can get me down. When he leaves, I'm usually still feeling quite content, though then I'll look forward to the next time I can see him.

It's really scary, sometimes, when I think abt how much my happiness depends on him.

But I guess there's no point thinking too much and psycho-analyzing myself and my thoughts. I should just soak in my content and hopefully, he feels the same way that I do.

I don't know how my life would be like if he's suddenly gone from it. And I never want to find out - may that day never come.

I love you honey! (=