mid sem break

There's this blog tt belongs to a friend of the Boyfriend; and I visit it frequently not just to read the contents of it - but because I love the songs tt he uploads to his blog! Its always chinese songs tt he plays, surprising tt I enjoy listening to them right? Those who know me will know me as someone who only listens to english songs - but I think I am a convert. Haha. Well, I suppose I won't go hunt down chinese artistes or listen to chinese radio, but at least now I can say tt I am able to appreciate chinese songs.

The meaning of the songs are so..implicit and deep. Not those on-the-surface kinds tt you find in english songs, where the lyrics are all those about I love you I miss you I want to be with you. Well. Pop, at least. Was having this discussion with the E lang gals and we were talking about how songs and prose always seem nicer and more meaningful when its in your mother tongue language. Perhaps tt's true. A little sad tt it took me more than 20 years to realise it..but now is better than never?

Am listening to this song abt how this guy wants his love story to have a fairy tale ending; and how he's willing to risk everything and be all that the girl wants just so they can have such an ending. *sigh* so romantic~

Which makes me wonder, will I ever have such a fairy-tale ending? All of us females long to be Cinderalla, but do we get to live out her fairy-tale ending in reality? Do you not wonder why are such stories told to us when we were kids? Do these stories not only add on to our expectations in our love life? If we had never been exposed to such fairy tales, we would never know what a "fairy tale ending" entails; and then there will be no disappointments when reality does not live up to our expectations. No expectations = no disappointments.

Okie enuff. I sound so cynical about love when in fact I'm not! Haha. Maybe cos I have the Boyfriend whom, I guess, attempts to give me as much 'fairy-tale' as he can when its possible. Remember the object of desire I mentioned in one of very first few entries? It's this Swatch skin that has five strands of pearls as the watch strap. Well...the Boyfriend bought it for me for Valentine's!! I remembered pointing it out to him a month ago and moaning about how I couldn't afford it; and I pushed the thought of ever owning it to the back of my mind [perhaps if I strike lottery?]

2 weeks before V-day I asked the Boyfriend if he was planning to get flowers for me this year [haha, I know, no surprise right?] and he just casually asked me "do you want flowers, or do you want tt Swatch?" *dreamy smile* he remembered enuff to want to get it for me! *dreamy smile* So now I have my object of desire lying neatly on the grey sponge in my drawer, and ever so often I'll look at it and just smile cos I like it a lot!

I just realised smthg...this semester is such a busy one, yet there are times when I enjoy it, because I enjoy just sitting down with the E lang girls and in the midst of discussing some horrible morpho-syntax stuff...there's always the crappy laughter and the sharing of ourselves. Self-disclosure, as my prof com Prof. will say. And we go a bit hysterical when we can't seem to figure out the syntax patterns..and then laugh at stupid things like 'chick: lucky colour yellow'. Haha. Inside joke lah.

I just end up smiling when I think of all the times we spent at the forum, lamenting about how we never get to go home early but still end up chit chatting when we can. Hehe. And there's this thing abt syntax and its frustrations tt sorts of bonds you together. =)