painful all over

Hmm, its 12 plus pm on a Monday, and I'm supposed to be in school, having 5 straight hours of lecure. But I'm not. Cos I'm so tired that I think if I were to go for classes, I'll definitely fall sick by tommorrow! Anyway Media is a seminar-style lecture that is filled with presentations and more presentations every week, with only perhaps 45 mins out of 3 hours that the lecturer speaks. And I read the readings yesterday anyway, seems pretty ok, only tt everything in this module speaks of ideology, ideology and more ideology.

Haha I feel as if my hazy pretty view of everything is going to be ruined after I complete this module. How sad. Ideology states that change is impossible; tt even if it is, it is undesirable. Is change really that bad?

I remember when I first started blogging in FOD, my blog title was "Things I Cannot Change" - in reference to the-big-ears-elephant in jc. Oh well, if you don't know who I'm referring to, it just means tt you haven't known me for very long! Heh. Anyway, at tt point in time I was in this state of accepting of things tt I will never be able to change. It was kind of a negative viewpoint tt I was having towards myself I guess. But then time passes, and I realized tt in order to move on with one's life, one needs to change. And adapt to changes too, in order to survive in the best manner tt we all can. So changes aren't tt bad, right? If change makes your life better, then all the more for it, I believe.

There have been pretty big changes in my life ever since jc days - the biggest ones being able to (i) find the Boyfriend *smiles* and (ii) losing weight! Haha. The second one is definitely not an easy thing to do, trust me. :p as for the first, well, tt must be the best change tt has happened to me. And I don't really think I want any change in tt aspect, unless of course its a change forward. Hee

Did I metion tt I have new pets? Yupz I have 4 guppies! Used to had 5 though, till one blue-tailed guppy decided tt life on my bedroom floor seemed more interesting than life in its fish tank, and promptly jumped out of the tank to experience life on the floor, only to realize life on the floor = life in fish heaven. Oh well. It was joined by the 2 mini goldfishes tt the Boyfriend bought, who also went to fish heaven after 3 days of being bought. So sad : / [but I think it sounds rather funny too. haha]

Oh. I forgot to talk abt my title! See, I get distracted so easily. Went for the SPCA Bike Quest thingy last sat, its a night cycling-Amazing Race kind of thing. We were cycling from 10 pm to 5 am and at the end of it I couldn't even walk properly. My butt was hurting so badly ok! Hai~ but I don't really regret it cos it was quite fun cycling ard and searching for the answers and eating supper at Lao Pa Sat, only please...don't ask me get on a bicycle anytime soon. I will reject any invitations tt has anything to do with a bicycle and having to cycle for long periods of time. Hee.

Suffering from the effects of having slept only 3 hours on sat night, tt's why I skipped school. Have to go down later still for a Media meeting with the girls. Oh well. At least I got to sleep in! Heh