acids in the tummy

Been plagued by gastric pain for the last 6 days. Today is the 7th day and counting. It's really frustrating to be in pain simply bcos it upsets my entire schedule. I can't do anything right when I'm in pain - all I want to do is loll around in bed; but again lying down flat hurts even more.

Last night I cried out of pain and frustration. Bcos of this pain, I'm unable to go to work - and tt's twice in a week now. Bet I have a horrible record at work, but it's not my fault! I wld rather be at work and teaching the kids than to be at home and grimacing in pain every hour.

Went down to the polyclinic on wed to get a referral letter to see a specialist. I want to get a scope done - who knows tt my gastric might be caused by an ulcer? Yet the earliest appointment tt they can give me is end Oct, which is one bloody month away. What am I supposed to do if the pain doesn't go away? Suffer for 1 whole month? Plus the female doctor who saw me was unsympathetic to my condition. Guess what she said? She told me, "gastric is a life-long problem. There is no cure for it - you just have to live with it." Hello. I don't pay you consultation fees to TELL me to LIVE WITH MY PROBLEM. Give me some hope, at least.

At least I got my appointment with NUH out of tt. And now I'm waiting for the afternoon to come so tt I can go see my usual GP. This is the 3rd doctor I'm consulting in 7 days. But I'm seeing him in the hope tt he can prescribe smthg stronger for my gastric. The last time I saw him and completed his course of medication, the gastric left me alone for 3 weeks.

I'm counting on him this time to last me till my appointment in October.

And if I'm grumpy/grouchy/frustrated all the time - it's not me, I swear. It's the gastric acid juices tt's making me act this way. And I am sorry but tt's just how much in pain I am tt it makes me not a nice person to be around.

To end off this grumpy whiny post, let me just wish the Fiance a happy 34 months anniversary. He's been there for me throughout my ordeal, and I really don't know how to deal with him being away by November.

My dad's convinced tt my gastric's brought abt by my stress over him leaving [subconscious or otherwise] and I don't know if he's right. All I know is tt I'm already dreading Nov 20.

Sighh.