it's killing me!

I am SO bored I've run out of things to do - and it's only 11.46pm. I positively dislike it when the boyfriend is on night shift, cos it means tt's there's no one to keep me company, entertain me and no nightly phone call to look forward to. Though I saw him 5 days out of the entire last week, I think I can still see tonight and still not be bored out of my mind. Hah.

I met the boyfriend on tues+wed+thurs+sat+sun. Wow. Really seems like a lot when you write it down like tt. But then again, I reason to myself, if we're going to be seeing each other a whole lot more next time, might as well get started now right? Some sort of a test-run - cos if I find myself sick of him when I see him 5 out of 7 days, how am I gg to live with him next time? Hrmph. So I guess so far Chong has passed the I'm-not-bored-of-you-yet test.

As you can tell, I'm really, really feeling very very free with nothing to do. Today was my free day, and I was supposed to go run some errands just now, but the parents pissed me off, and I ended up staying at home instead. And now I'm quite sick of my HK dramas already, and my online shopping; so I'm blogging instead.

The boyfriend and I hardly get a chance to talk, much less meet up, when he's on his night shift. Tt's cos being piggy, he'll sleep till 1/2+pm before waking up, when I'm already in sch. Then he goes off to work at 4pm, and he won't get off work till 1/2+am [okay, if he's lucky he might end at 12+/1am] but by the time he gets home and shower, I'm already off to dreamland.

So every alternate week, I find myself in a position not unlike how it was back then when I was single. Aha! But at least when I was single I had pple chatting to me on msn & pple asking me out on weekends. Somehow, when I got attached, all those stopped. Ceased. Just like tt, with the snap of your fingers. Funny how things change when your status changes as well. So I end up being extremely lonely on alternate weeks! *grumbles*

Hmm I'm thinking of getting a NDS, you know, just so it'll keep me company on lonely nights and lonely bus rides to/from sch. Then at least I won't be so grumpy and complain so much. BUT the NDS is not cheap! So I'm really hesitating to get myself one [imagine all the shopping I can do with tt money!] and it's smthg tt I really need to ponder over.

Okie I'm feeling slightly groggy now so tt's good, it means I can now go off to bed! I can't believe I whined so much abt the boyfriend's work hours, but then again, I'm pms-ing, so I'm entitled to do so. But before I sign off, here's some lines from a girl's blog tt really set me thinking after reading it.

"why do all good things come to an end, seriously?

why do all the good times that we have, stand a high chance of ending?

why?

I think the longer we are together, the more I harbour thoughts of being with you forever.

why, if we aren't going to be with each other forever,

don't we just break up now?

Aren't we wasting time investing feelings into each other,

only to be heartbroken in the end?"

Really makes sense, and makes you think, doesn't it?