of friends & sentimentality

It's been 4 days since I have been officially labelled a graduate, and my academic life of 16 years is now over. When I handed in my last paper, I thought tt I wld feel... released; but then I thought wrong. Its true - the anticipation of the last day is always greater than the day itself [quoted from von, who quoted from matthew]; and as I said goodbye to my friends, I didn't feel anything. Not nostalgia, not sadness, nor happiness.

I guess if I had to feel smthg, it wld be slight tinges of regret. Though I'm never one to think back on the past and feel regrets, I do think I will miss the closeness shared by the honours class, the jokes and laughter we've shared, and my closest elang friends - vanitha, von and andrea. Vanitha I will see in n*e, but for von and andrea, our common paths end here. Oh, we say tt we'll keep in touch, we'll meet up, but you and I know tt we'll never share tt intimacy of friendship tt comes with friends who spend all their sch time with each other, ever again.

As we move on from here, we'll head for different paths. We'll meet up, we'll gossip and bitch [ok, I'll bitch and you all can gossip. hah], but we won't understand each other's work the same way we do now. Our friendship will remain, but we'll never be able to talk abt the same stuff the way we used to - think prag.stuff & lecturers & sch stuff.

I think I appear rather pessimistic, yet I still believe tt true friendship will stand and hold through the trials of time. Like how even though da-jie & er-jie & myself have so different career callings, and even though we may not meet up as much as we'd like to, but underneath it the reins of bonding & friendship stand as strong as it used to in the past when we were in jc.

Come to think of it, even in jc we were separated and in different classes; yet we still stayed best friends.

I'm getting all sentimental here, but it is only with da-jie & er-jie tt I share my deepest thoughts - my hopes and my fears abt life in general. Its scary - sometimes when we're together, I look at them and think: I love them, and these are my best friends. And though yin and I meet more often than the three of us do, I don't love huiyi any less.

See - I'm a typical scorpio; I love my best friends, even if I can't say it to their face. Yin & I tried holding hands the way some girls do, but I think we both felt tt it was just too weird. Hah. Think we're too hetereosexual for tt.

And the wonderful thing is tt we're gg on holiday together! Can't wait, even though I think both of them will grumble a lot when I say all I want to do is lie in the sun and tan. Haha! ANYWAYS, our 10 years anniversary is coming! 10 years of friendship, girls! We must have a celebration, and toast to another 50 years of friendship!

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Together with old friends I guess comes new ones. I've gotten to know this elang classmate of mine, Joanna, and we're chatting like good friends and even thinking of being entrepreneurs, all in the space of, *hmm* three weeks? All thanks to shopping - we shopaholics shld band together! Hah. But its good to know tt I've found a new friend who's also gg to n*e! (:

Da-jie, Er-jie, Me

[oui girls, this photo was taken last year July okie, and I cldn't find any recent ones at all - I think we need to take loads of pics on our Bintan trip! Can you all be more conscientious in photo-taking! Tsk.

My Elang girls!

Me *hearts* all of you! (=