After putting the phone down just a while ago, a thought struck me. I think I remember telling myself and close friends tt in this next relationship of mine, I'm setting out to be more independent - to be someone stronger, emotionally.

Added on with kc's tag, I just realized, once more, how I've failed to keep my own resolution.

I want to be someone who can be in a relationship, but who can also step away from it shld I see tt the need arises. To not want to spend every single free moment with the person, because tt just spells reliance and dependence. To hold less expectations and less hope for happy endings, because the greater you expect, the harder the fall.

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I know tt last sentence sounds extremely pessimistic, and I'm not sure what brought it about. I'm usually rather optimistic, but somehow, I feel tt I ought to be more of a realist, and less of a dreamer. In my opinion, there isn't really time for me to float along with the clouds, only to find myself hard on the ground one day.

And yes, I think there's a cynic in me.

Well, before I officially start "work" on 25th June [there's abt a mth more to go, yay!], I think I shld spend the time catching up with friends, especially the elang girls and my 38 gang, as well as those whom I think I've sort-of neglected ever since I got attached. Mambo is on with Christina this wed, looking fwd to it! (: