deep thoughts

Although this is my blog, where I supposedly am able to pen down thoughts and feelings, you do realize that a blog is an open space and traffic can come from anywhere.

There are issues I wish to blog about, but yet I am restrained by the very factor that makes blogs unique: anyone, just about anyone, can have access to it, if they know how to get to it. It is at these moments that I contemplate switching over to Wordpress, where I can choose my entry to be password protected, if I so wish.

Moving on.

The one characteristic I possess that I pride myself on having, is that I'm not a hypocrite. I do not say nice things in front of you, and then go behind your back to whisper nasty things. If I'm unhappy with you, I will either shut up, or just try to act as per normal - and neither will I go out of my way to be friendly with you nor will I pretend tt everything's fine and dandy.

I like to believe tt I'm a straightforward person, when it comes to thoughts and deeds. But increasingly so, I'm finding it harder to do that. When you step out into the real world, you realize that you cannot have the world revolve around you; and that sometimes, you do need to place a mask in front of you for self-protection.

And so when I'm unhappy, I just keep quiet instead of voicing my thoughts, because I know very well that impulse will not solve matters, and might make the situation worse than it already is. If you're perceptive enough, and know me well enough, you will know how I'm really feeling. Which is why I find it hard to show sympathy, simply because it would be misplaced and undeserving.

And I will not play the role of a hypocrite by doing so.