Just came home from Bintan yesterday evening and once again, I'm sunburnt! The sun over there is really deceiving. I was lying in the sun and enjoying it because there were cool winds ever so often - and it didn't really feel that the sun was on me. So I laid there for quite a while; flipped over on my back and promptly fell asleep in that wonderful weather; and flipped back over my front. Think I must have laid there for abt close to 2 hours, yet I didn't feel... burnt.


But alas when I went back to the hotel room to shower and saw myself in the mirror, the contrast was really great. Argh. The price to pay. But then again the combination of sun and wind is something you'll never find on our island, so I guess I'll just appreciate it. In fact, I already miss it. Pictures are with Dan & Han - will get them and if they're pretty enough I shall just post them here. Hah. We ended up taking too little pics bcos we all got lazy and didn't want to put make-up over there, so no makeup = not gorgeous enough = not taking any pics. Heh


Just before the boyfriend left on his Brunei detachment (like for the 3rd time), we celebrated our 1 year anniversary in advance!

Well, the past 12 months, all I can say is tt there are plenty times when I've never felt happier than I ever had before; but there were also times when I've never felt as depressed as I had when I had certain thoughts in my head. I've been the happiest girl. and I've also been a sad girl at times too. But what's important is that you have to learn to let go of the unhappiness in order to move forward to be happy - there's no point in lingering on unhappy stuff and letting it fester in you.

I wouldn't be idealistic and say tt the 12 months have been heaven - but it's as close as I've ever had in any relationship, ever. And for that I am grateful to the boyfriend, for showing me what "love" should really be all about; and for letting me believe in happy-endings again. It's not to say we haven't had our quarrels and disagreements - yes we've had those - but somehow we always manage to compromise and resolve them together; and this is really what a relationship should be like.

I know I haven't been the best and nicest girlfriend ever, because Chong spoils me so much tt there are times I throw tantrums just for the fun of them; and also cause I love how he pacifies me. Having said tt, it isn't always healthy to throw tantrums for fun, and I'm learning to break this bad habit before it takes its toil on us. I'm just glad and appreciative for all tt he has done to make this relationship work, and I really hope that we'll have a future together.

I love you honey! Happy 1 year anniversary... may there be more years to come! *muakzs*