everything is screwed up

Early this morning, on the first day of Chinese New Year, the house phone rang at 7.45 am. It was, as early phone calls go, not a good piece of news.

My ah-ma had passed away early this morning, around 7 am.

Please, no condolences or words of sympathy - I personally, as well as many of my family members, feel that it was a 'positive' thing to have happened; after more than a year laying comatose in a bed, death came as a release for her.

But I was... to be honest, quite pissed. Frustrated that this sort of thing had to happen on da-nian qiu-yi. All my plans went down the drain. I know it sounds selfish to have thought such thoughts, but that was exactly how I felt when I first heard the news. In fact, I would even say tt I was angry at my ah-ma for having "chosen" such an inappropriate day - such bad timing.

*sighs*

But I am resigned to it - I have no choice but to.